How dare you dare me?
If this is what love is about then I just want to stay away
Two sided like a penny?
You make my soul cry and my kindness regretful.
Stay away from me
Don’t speak to me ever again
Not of roses or of beauty
Whether you have changed like season or still the same like stagnancy.
Why should love hurt?
Why should my heart be lukewarm?
Why should my mind be pierced by the thoughts of loosing what is already lost?
I am okay with anything but lies
Okay with promises that will not be washed away by the rain that is my tear
I want to hate you but my faith will not let me.
Four years, moments that seem untrue now
How could I have blinded my eyes
And shut my heart to the truth?
My head knew the problem’s root
But I brushed it off with the hope of something true
We are through right now
I hope to forget you like my sins
And remember you only as my yesterday.
My fault is what I called it, hard on myself like ice
Only to realise the monster is you the other day.
I should not waste time writing about you
Rewiring my heart, mind and soul to forget you
Like the dream I had about sipping coffee
Because like the coffee I drank, you are just as dark.
Just as a deep wound is covered with fresh skin
I will teach myself to forget you with fresh memories
Like the night gives way to day
I will control my heart to give way to healing
Learn to accept forgiveness is the way
And unforgotten is not the necessary evil.
How dare you say you still love me?