As a little child, I barely knew who God is
Or what it means to know God.
The word seemed vague
I found it irrelevant to be close to an invisible being
Or thought I was never going to meet.
As time passed, growing up into maturity was
A journey I could not walk into alone
I needed a friend, a light, something that could lead me
I wanted a friend and I desired a companion that could fill my vaccum
Life was awkward and I was awkward
I felt as though an alien
Nothing apart from home and no one apart from family seemed right
But I had to live with it and live with them.
School was a zone or a world that I just existed in
Because I was never alive whenever I was in it
I was like a living dead who just wanted to pass along and get along
There were cliques; girls dividing into groups and they were more of hell in hell for me
They discussed a variety of amateur topical issues
Laughed at the silliest of things and having issue with a boy seemed like the world’s biggest activity
I wondered why they thought the way they did and acted the way they did
But I guess I was not meant to understand.
Along the way,
I met five kinds of people who taught me five different things
I met Acceptance, who taught me
Being free and happy were the most important things in life
Friendship taught me, relationship is a hard ride, confusing and sometimes a lonely walk
You never truly get to know your partner but you have to grow with the person
Freedom, the true definition of young, wild and free,
We crossed paths, entirely different from each other but we did get along
It taught me the foolish actions we take and the craziest decisions we make
It showed me that we were young and our mistakes should be counted as lessons
I met Smart and Ego, who brought before me the essence of education and pride
She swayed with a charisma no one could compete with as every beat of her zeal was worth admiration
Lastly, I met the fun, the good, the bad and the ugly,
Who truly left no foot print in my mark of time.
The one that gave me a turn around was Acceptance
Though she died along the way, she forever lives in my heart
I realized my ignorance and came in contact with wisdom so I contacted forgiveness
Forgiveness came and it accepted me
It showed me the way, the light and the truth.
Sometime later I lost my path, till I found it again in the 20s.
I found it in December under the mistletoe of love
The month of celebration and rejoicing
We made up and started a new chapter of our relationship
I felt so relieved like a burden had been lifted off my shoulders
My life turned around for the best in ways I cannot explain
It saved me from myself and from the world.
Knowing God at this stage of my life is beyond what the world has to offer me
Everyday is a chance to get to know Him better and I pray never to fail to grasp the moments of being with Him
He loves so unconditionally that it shakes every bit of doubt in me.
There is never a better moment to know God than to know God while you are a youth
Your service to Him should not be counted as time loss because in the place you wish to spend eternity, you will spend it serving Him
Knowing God, has made me realize the value of people in my life
It has made me understand a different kind of love
I have come to accept the importance of being a giver always
I have come to terms with reality and spirituality
I have come to understand that my walk with God has nothing to do with religion but me as a vessel
Knowing God is not for my benefit alone but for the benefit of the kingdom.
There are people you will meet along the way, who will invest a seed in you
It is then your choice to choose that which will germinate in you.
Life without a personal relationship with God is worthless
It can be likened to a traveller without destination and a farmer without his tools.
Remember always that no matter how prepared you think you are for life
Your safety is of the Lord.